So as you may know if you have followed my blog for a while, my mother has been battling cancer for several years now.
She would get tired easily and she might be uncomfortable from time to time but life has pretty much gone on as usual.
It was something that was there but never very apparent if that makes sense.
It has had a steady momentum until just recently, it is taking a bullet train nose train nose dive.
The past several months she has been getting much worse. She stopped driving, she stopped being able to do housework, and she has been moaning in pain especially in the past several weeks. I have been trying to help her with her chores and haven’t had any time and heart to really create art.
This past week the bullet train broke new records.
She shattered her arm a couple of days ago just by opening a door, that is all that she did. She opened a door. Her bones fractured all along her right arm and jaggedly to boot and they are disintegrating. She can’t move it at all and won’t be able to for months if ever. The least tiny bit of movement to her arm and she is in so much pain she could pass out and is in so much pain she vomits.
She will be bed ridden as she can’t afford to walk as again, just doing the least little thing could shatter her anywhere because the cancer has eaten into her bones so much.
My sister Debbie has worked in nursing homes for most of her life and is taking care of her, she has come down from KY to stay with her and tend to her and I think Hospice is going to be seeing my mom more frequently. My mom is in incredible pain and is in pain all the time now.
Seeing her suffer so much is the worst. She has had cancer for several years now and it has been pretty stable and she would be more tired but life went on pretty much as usual. The past few months she has started going down hill really fast and especially this week. I didn’t even realize how much she had gone downhill. It is a shock because it feels like it came out of nowhere even though logically of course it didn’t but the momentum was so gradual before and now it is just nosediving at lightning speed.
Seeing her in so much pain is the worst part and this cancer stuff is so much more real now. I have never had to see someone go through anything like this before. I have never seen someone so frail and ill and in so much pain, to the point of completely suffering. I have never seen it so much in front of my face. Mortality just became so much more real.
Please keep her in your prayers. I will resume my art soon.
Picture of me and my mom when I was little below.